I just did something i have not done in a while, i got really pissed at j. I think it's really more than just him, but the issue at hand.

Why cant these people just leave me alone. Yea sure, friends, close friends, whatever. Whenever i try, you give me that, it's either you date me or we're not even friends attitude. I hate it when you two get all so sweet and nice one moment and then do a 180 turn and gimmi that nonchalant attitude whenever you feel like it. I'm not your damn toy you idiots.

I truly take you guys for my close friends and you just had to read it as that. I really cannot stand it when guys do not believe in the word platonic. It especially sucks when i know you're using me as a replacement. I know it because i've done the exact same thing to someone before. I'm pissed. Really pissed.